My Struggle To Get Better
© Copyright 1999 by John L. Waters.
All Rights Reserved.
--->Manic-depressive. I had mood swings and great
expectations, a lot of personal pain and confusion,
personal let-downs, ecstatic responses to sights and
sounds, roaring waters and winds, fire and light.
I had arthritic pain so bad I sometimes couldn't walk,
and bursitis and irregular heartbeat. I was often
sick with a respiratory illness, and sometimes I felt
faint, and sweated and shook. Some days I could
scarcely do any physical work at all.
--->I wrote a lot of poetry but no humor. I'd accepted
Christ, but this faith didn't cure my physical disorders
or my mental disorders, and twenty years ago at age 39
I was in a great deal of distress. I often thought
that suicide was the answer. Even as a young man I'd
been unable to work hard like a man is expected to.
--->The physical pain I suffered was chronic, and
I was often weak and sick. I had spells of weakness
and shaking and sweating. My heartbeat was irregular.
I had pain in my arthritic foot so bad that sometimes
I couldn't walk at all. I had to wear soft rubber
rain boots all year, because my foot was swollen and
sore. Until I was forty I wasn't able to look
another person in the eye. I was autistic, and
greatly intimidated by people.
--->I visited counselors regularly, but they didn't
know what I would do to seemingly miraculously be
cured, so that I ran on the beach for miles, and
went out and found persons in need of help and I
helped them!
--->Since 1980 I've worked out a theory of the
therapeutic sense which helped me to improve so
dramatically, and grow out of my autistic Asperger's
Syndrome condition, and come to a better understanding
of people. As you know, probably, an autistic person
has very restricted interests. This therapy worked to
expand my consciousness.
--->I'm not a medical doctor, but I've come at
medicine from a different direction. Sometimes a
fresh look makes a discovery which conventional
researchers just can't find.
--->I've spent a good twenty years working on better
understanding my autism, and the lack of autism in
doctors who are very ego-minded and assertive that
they know "The Truth" just like so many fundamentalist
Christians are very assertive that they know "The
Truth". But the fact is, I wasn't cured by Jesus
Christ, and I wasn't cured by pills or by any other
form of expensive modern medicine. I had to work
out a different approach.
--->It's been difficult and frustrating for me,
because I've not known how to make contact with a lot
of doctors, or medical scientists, so that there might
be further testing of my method.
--->I've decided that I need to put up websites and
see if I can find persons in different places who are
interested.
--->I'm a philosopher and an experimenter with this
therapeutic sense. By that I mean I am a thinker,
and the therapeutic sense makes me produce a lot of
thoughts in writing and in art and in music. I'm
just creative. And my creativity went over into
medicine, so that I could survive, and feel less
pain.
--->The method I worked out is natural, and has an
appeal for natural persons, but in our culture, the
natural persons are all very young. Culture puts on
a clothing of artificiality, which is learned by heart
by children at a relatively young age.
--->Basically I used sunlight and simple vegetarian
food and other natural products to alter my body
chemistry and feel elevated at a high mood for a long
time. I was manic for a long time. I lost a lot of
body weight, and I looked forward to each day as a
grand adventure.
--->The difficult part was that I roamed about town
and interacted with strangers, and the people who were
employed had little or no time to visit with me. I
mainly visited with counterculture adults, and with
young children, and with college professors who took
time to read my papers and talk with me about my
research. I have letters of recommendation from
many local people, including some professors.
--->Doctors tend to be very very busy treating
people who pay a lot of money to visit with them.
And the doctor relates to each person as a patient
to whom the doctor ministers his conventional medicine.
But since the doctors hadn't been able to cure me,
I had to cure myself.
Treating My Chronic Disorders
--->Where I live now I still have this same problem.
And my letters to various medical institutes and
organizations don't spark any genuine interest. In
fact some of the doctors I've written electronic mail
to tell me to not write them anymore. Generally I am
made to feel very marginalized by the "in" group.
--->If I publish on the web exactly what I did to
be amazingly transformed, some people might try
doing the same thing and be injured. I can't afford
a lawsuit, but I feel that what I have done needs to
be studied by people, in such a way that professional
investigators are included, because these experts know
how to write articles which can be published in a
reputable medical journal. I myself am not able to
write in that format.
--->The physical pain I suffered was chronic, and
I was often weak and sick. I had spells of weakness
and shaking and sweating. My heartbeat was irregular.
I had pain in my arthritic foot so bad that sometimes
I couldn't walk at all. I had to wear soft rubber
rain boots all year, because my foot was swollen and
sore. Until I was forty I wasn't able to look
another person in the eye. I was autistic, and
greatly intimidated by people.
Innovative Peace Research
--->You will hear claims made by orthodox medical
doctors about how wonderful chemical therapies are,
but the medical doctors don't advertise the harm their
chemical treatments inflict on people. Neither do the
faith healers, and the Fundamentalists keep an accurate
record on how many people have faith, but they get
sicker anyway. There's just a lot of hubris and
skullduggery in medicine.
--->I work with the psychic field. But I don't heal
people by psychic energy. I teach people my theory of
the psychic field, and I help a person sense the
psychic energy more and more, under the auspices of
trained, scientific observers. I just need to find
some trained, scientific observers who will take some
time studying my theory, and studying me, without
being too aggressive about the whole affair.
Aggressive people are too intimidating, and being
so emotional isn't the way to do good science.
--->Psychic energy is a really coooool medicine.
--->If you have any questions, suggestions or comments,
send me an e-mail.
--->DISCLAIMER: My reports given on this website are
based on personal experience alone. A treatment which
works or causes problems for one person may cause
another person to respond in a different way.
8:09 PM May 17
